I do not need a special day to bring you to my mind. The days I do not think of you are very hard to find. Each morning when I awake I know that you are gone. And no one knows the heartache as I try to carry on. My heart still aches with sadness and secret tears still flow. What it meant to lose you no one will ever know. My thoughts are always with you, your place no one can fill. In life I loved you dearly; in death I love you still. My Son Lives in Paradise The dust has settled on the things That I have stored away A favorite Tin for a son so young A jar of old penneys from yesturday. A photograph when you were young Sits quietly on the shelf Thoughts of you come drifting back I just can’t help myself. A drawing that you made for me When you were very small Is framed within this heart of mine And hangs upon the wall. A scrapbook lies within the room Where you once laid your head Your favorite book, a model car The pillow on your bed. I miss you coming in from work “Hey mom, it’s me, I’m home” I miss the little words and hugs The special times we’ve known. A part of me just disappeared The day you went away An empty space now fills my heart There are no words to say. A closet filled with memories Of happy days gone by A baseball cap and souvenir Why did you have to die? I hear your voice within the halls It echoes in the night I see you in the evening mist And in the morning light. So many things you left behind Are now a memory But little arms that held me tight Will always stay with me. An empty space now fills my heart My boy, my child, my son You’ve gone into another world Where golden dreams are spun. I do not know the answers It‘s not for me to know But I will know the truth one day Just why you had to go. My turn will come to leave this world I’ll gaze into your eyes God’s perfect plan will be revealed Up there in paradise. MY CHILD On the day God took you I thought that I would die I wondered where the time went? I asked alot of whys?? With people all around me I felt alone inside From all their words of comfort, I couldn't seem to hide, I thought I might be dreaming That I'd wake and find you here, I thought "This can't be happening." As I wiped another tear. On the day that you were laid to rest My heart broke yet again, I wondered if the pain would end, Poem Golden Memories They say memories are golden, well, maybe that is true. I never wanted memories, I only wanted you. A million times I cried. If love alone could have saved you, you never would have died. In life I loved you dearly, in death I love you still. In my heart you hold a place no one else could fill. If tears could build a stairway and heartache make a lane. I'd walk the path to Heaven and bring you back again. Our family chain is broken, and nothing seems the same. But as God calls us back one by one, the chain will link again.